Before I met my husband, I was on the fence about how much I actually wanted children of my own. I became an auntie at age 16 and then again at age 20 and I was pretty convinced that children may be too much for my own liking, even though my niece and nephew are two amazing individuals. That little opinion of mine (along with other reasons why I am now thoroughly enjoying my journey toward domestication) changed shortly after I met Brad. Although I still wasn't ready for kids, something inside told me that I wanted to one day marry and have a family with that man. Well, two dogs, one cat and a baby later... we've got ourselves a little family. We don't think Joanna quite completes our whole family, she sure does add more love to the mix than we ever thought was possible.
Here are a few things I've learned in the last week:
1. In the first few days (or possibly even weeks/months), you can cry tears of happiness - over and over and over again! ...Right after she was born, the nurses worked on her for a good twenty minutes while trying to get the fluid out of her lungs. Brad stood next to me waiting patiently for them to give her to me. I literally had waterfalls of tears running down my face and kept saying to him, Can you believe that is our daughter? I am in complete disbelief of how much love she brings into my heart - all 6 pounds, 6 ounces and 20 inches of her. As cliche as it sounds, its unreal and it's difficult to understand until you have one of your own - at least it was difficult for me until last Wednesday.
2. Sleep deprivation isn't as bad as it sounds. Okay, that statement sounded crazy and maybe it's the new-mommy-adrenaline-high that I'm still riding, but somehow your body adapts to the needs of that little being that just entered the world. It's not to say you won't fall asleep nursing in the rocking chair or walk around with bags under your eyes... but your body truly adapts.
3. You fall in love with your partner all over again. Cliche statement #2 but this is real - I promise. You see them in a whole new light when they wake up at 1:30 am to change a dirty diaper, they clean the litter box (even though they hate cats) or they try to soothe and rock a fussy baby while telling her stories.
4. After day 3, babies poop and pee... A LOT! Wow, have we gone through quite a few diapers and she is only 7 days old.
5. Your baby will become the new focus of your life. I'm sure that once new parents learn what their new normal is with their new baby, they are able to [mostly] continue living the life they previously lived before their baby arrived and bring them along for the journey - but in the interim, it's literally all about the baby.
Thats all for now!
New Mommy Stephanie